stupidity of me

i had done something really stupid last night... what a stupid question i asked him and now i more shy and more dunno how to face him. what on earth am i thinking when sending that message? am i out of my mind... now i feel so bad and my emotion were in a mess. I shouldn't have sent but y did i send? i hate myself so myself for not able to control myself anymore. but i really wanna get the ans from him and let him know that i am willing to be by his side support him and care him together with trinnix. i am willing to be his no.2 person. i am willing to be a someone important for trinnix. i dun wan just to be a bez fren for i cannot stand if he told he me that he fall for someone. how can i send that stupid message.... hate it.... i really hate myself.... WEE CHEOW LI u r so hopeless and useless... U already say treat him as fren then u should not think too much... but i still want to have a chance... is there any chance for us, i really dunno... perhaps i should really just treat him as a bez fren.... i will try my best to treat him as my bez fren and try my best to erase off our memories.