it is love? am i wrong in loving someone? cant i have the chance?

we should not make a relationship then i wont be in this hurt. i can still control my feeling towards him. i am not a wood. i am not a human with no feeling. i hate my feeling when it always right. i know he had no feel for me and just treat me as fren. i know that he felt sorry for playing me. but i want him to know that i just wanted a word from him. a word that can ask me to wait. i am willing to wait him. these few days i had been trying very hard in maintaining our relationship as fren. i know it is hard but i really dun wan to give up. love does not mean to own right. but single handed love really tired and pain. the worst pain is i had started to miss his daughter trinnix. i miss her a lot and a feeling of taking care of her slowly grow inside me. i dun wan to be her god mother cause i know what i want to be for her. bb i miss u... i had been see ur pic lately. it seems like bb daddy avoiding me.. perhaps he really busy... i also wish him the best. i just want to be beside him support him den i can be satisfied and happy. if he have problem i hope he will think of me and wish i can share with him. just be by his side i can be more than satisfied and happy. bb trinnix, jie jie miss u a lot... jie jie love u....