feeling of missing

we haven't meet each other for several days since last Monday and our texts getting fewer and fewer. I don't know that I had started to miss you till yesterday when I received your message I was really happy and feel bliss. By then, I already know I had started to really miss you. It may seem awkard for we just each other not long. Eventually I also don't does I really have feeling towards you or I just want to feel the missing piece inside me. I really cannot confirm on what is my feeling actually... I don't even know am I really scared in losing you or I just need an accompany. I know that you are busy lately for you had tell me in your message. But y am my heart feel ache when I don't receive any message from you. your message also getting fewer and fewer. Do I really put you in my life d or am I the one who started to enter in your life? We known each other really not long but why do I have this kind of feeling? These few days are you really busy or are you trying to avoid me? My mind was so confuse and blank. Every morning when I wake, the first I do was looking at my phone to check whether you had message me or not.... same goes to every night before I sleep I would wait for your message ... What on earth is happening to me? Why everyday my mind seems like to have you in it? Why I cannot control my mind anymore? Now, even a single message from you could brighten up my day... Why am I letting you in my life? I even started to listen to the songs that you love eventhough I don't like the song at first.  Why am I caring your daughter so much and so worry about your daughter when I know she is sick? What is happening to me? This is not suppose to happen and I should not have this kind of feeling... Today no message from you since morning till now... My mind was in a mess once again.... Am I had really fallen for you or I just want to fill the missing piece in my life and heart?/? Perhaps I should had let the feeling pass and not trying to find answer for the feeling anymore. I had filled my days with busy works and appointment but I still care and miss your message and the time being together with you... Perhaps I should avoid u and let go whatever happen now. I am feeling I am getting deeper and my feeling getting stronger each. I scared all these was just a dream and also my own thought... I scare to let him know all these feeling inside me. I scare if he knew it, he wont call me, message me and I can't be by his side whenever he needs me. I can't even make any move now as my status not yet change. I don't know he can wait me or not.. or maybe we are just friend. i am getting fed up and trying to step out d.... for i scare of disappointment. I really scare to know what he think... perhaps now is the best.. I have no confidence in myself anymore... I am a loser in love.... but I do miss him now....