After 3 years, finally I pregnant again. I don't really care about how others think about my pregnancy but my heart was filled with excitement and I was so happy about it. As for someone called my husband, I don't even know what is his actual feeling. Furthermore, I could not sense any feeling from him. I was so excited for these 2 months and waiting to meet my new baby. How only God and my mother in heaven would know my feeling.
Unfortunately, things always not on the bright side of mine. I made my first appointment with my doctor on 4 Nov 2019. I was eager to meet my new baby. I went to a check-up myself. Everything was fine with me. Weight ok. All were in order. Finally, it's time to see my baby. How anxious I was this time. When the doctor started to scan, I was waiting anxiously. Suddenly the doctor said, could not detect my baby and it seems like my baby had stopped growing inside me. My baby was 9 weeks and 1 day old.
The doctor said she would like to discuss it with me and talked to me. I was praying and thinking in my mind please don't about the bad things. Things will not always as expected. The doctor says most probably I will miscarriage with this pregnancy. The word miscarriage hurt me deeply. I was waiting to meet my baby but the doctor says most probably I would not be able to meet my baby. Only my mummy in heave and GOD knows how I felt at that time. I hold my tears but I know anyhow it will rivering down from my eyes.
I was alone at that time. There's nothing I could do to save my baby. AFTER 2 DAYS, I started to notice spots. The doctor says it was the beginning process of miscarriage. She asked to wait patiently for the natural miscarriage. I really wanted to burst out tears. My stomach started to cramp but up until today I still not bleeding.
Doctor says I would have to wait. The whole waiting process killing me. Now I just hope baby faster out and I can go pray for the baby.
